Pest Inspection

September 30th, 2010

The day has come. I was excited to receive a Wood Destroying Insect Inspection Report.

I decided that, to make this blog more fleshy, I am going to toss in some real life updates, too.

Basically, I’m terrible at remembering when things happen – month and year, for instance. I generally try to remember based on where I lived at the time. That doesn’t always work. That’s why journals are handy, I guess!

So, since this space is “mine” more than Facebook, Livejournal, Twitter or Tumblr, I should use it to journal my life… or risk having to do oodles of research to remember when things happened.

Closing is November 15.

We’ll call my real life posts “Chuck’s Lack of Existential Angst.” Because that is what they are.

An Open Email to the Daily Show

July 13th, 2010

Mr. Daily Show,

In general, I love you guys and think you are insightful regarding many of today’s issues.

However, the Marilynne Robinson interview revealed both her ignorance and, sadly, yours. (I don’t want to blame Jon Stewart only, as I suspect there are other culprits!)

Ms. Robinson imagines a conflict between science and religion and then imagines that imaginary conflict shouldn’t exist.

I could write seven essays on the problems with the ideas expressed in this interview, but uh… I’ve got stuff to do. And so do you. So here’s seven sentences:

1.) Science never relies on faith (where “faith” is the belief in a fact despite the absence of evidence that can be generated in repeatable controlled experiments).

2.) When science proposes something like, “Dark Matter (not anti-matter, buddy) makes up most of the universe, but we don’t know what it is and we can’t detect it,” it’s not stating that as a fact or a belief.

3.) Rather, science relies on proposing possible explanations for phenomena, then proposing tests to prove or disprove those phenomena, while never claiming proof of things that can not be proven (like the existence or non-existence of God).

4.) Religion relies on mythological and untestable explanations for phenomena, and is increasingly met with scientific facts that eliminate what is mythological and shrink what is untestable.

5.) Science is ambivalent to religion because science is ambivalent to anything that isn’t an observable, measurable, repeatable natural fact.

6.) Religion must struggle with science because it constantly expands our knowledge into crevices of thought that displace long-held and comforting beliefs – like the observation of evolution displaces creationism, and continued study of abnormal psychology ousts evil spirits, or an understanding of cognitive processes casts doubts on the soul.

7.) Ultimately, religion must learn to evolve if it’s going to survive; it must adapt itself into a cultural spine for helping guide those who are lost and advise those who are facing ethical dilemmas (which it always claims are its goals), but it must abandon the threats, the myths and the nonsense.

Yeah, the semi-colon was a bit of cheating.

Love,

Chuck

Regarding the Soul

June 14th, 2010

A while ago, I wrote about being spiritual and talking about a belief in the soul. I promised that I would explain that someday. Today is that day!

The reason the concept of a soul exists is no doubt tied to the psychological need of a human being for a predictable, comprehensible universe. There is also the concept of the “immortality” of the soul, no doubt to help us with our ultimate existential enemy, death itself. It is sensible that humanity created the concept of the soul given our situation. But when we transition – individually or as a group – into a naturalistic, atheist worldview, what good is the concept of the soul?

Firstly, the soul seems existent as a big brother of the phenomena we call “identity.” People are mostly creatures of habit and repeated behavior. They are of persistent appearance and voice. People have speech patterns, behavior patterns and em0tional patterns. It is our intellectual nature to assume all of this is informed by a single source. We might call that source their mind or their identity or possibly their soul. I would call those three different and distinct things (each a subset of the next, actually).

However, people ultimately change many many times over their life (a thing that is too often looked at negatively when it can often be a positive thing). For instance, the entity that we call “Chuck” and who I call “me” was, at one time, a person of no confidence, wild depressive mood swings and poor social acumen. But I’ve changed drastically on those points. More simply, at one point, I was 3 feet tall and now I am six feet tall.

For the most part, we basically ignore those changes where it regards “identity” and we say that I am Chuck, and I am the same Chuck that was once 3 feet tall. And yet, a portion of my identity – what I consider are the important qualities that define who I am – is confidence, an even mood that tilts towards positivity and a great deal of skill in social situations. That describes a different person than who I was. While we can say, “Chuck as changed,” what does it mean to be Chuck? Who is Chuck? Which Chuck – past or present – was the better representative of Chuck-ness? These are ultimately questions of identity, and identity changes. But identity must then be a quality of a larger whole, and that whole is Chuck.

It sounds like whimsical banter, but I think it becomes a real question of concern when we speak about the dead. Some remember the dead in their youth, some remember the dead as a public persona, some remember the dead as a private persona… but ultimately, who can define their identity? No one was with them in the secret moments in their mind when private feelings were felt, and that represents a whole other equally (if not more) valid part of who they were.

People of my age can also see this in the groups of friends they’ve had or kept over the years. How would my high school friends describe me? How would my college friends describe me? How would my post-college friends describe me? And, perhaps most interesting of all, how would those friends who I have kept since high school compare and contrast me with the friends who have only known me a year?

Further, some people decide at certain points in their life that a stark change in identity is necessary. Some people will move to a new city, make new friends and try to redefine themselves, no doubt to varying degrees of success. Certain people feel that certain aspects of their identity – their gender identity, for instance – is not properly represented, and they initiate life-changing events – like gender reassignment surgery – as a way of making them more comfortable with how their identity matches their appearance, or vice-versa.

Through all of these changes, what remains constant? Are we simply assigning a name to a composition of constantly-changing animate molecules housing a roving intelligence? Is there more to it than that?

I propose that there is more to it than that, although not materially.

Certainly, dash the old definitions of the soul. Forget the immortality and the life after death. There is no evidence, there is no proof and that means there is no reason to believe in it.

Embrace a naturalistic worldview, and evolve the definition of the soul. The “soul” is that consistent element which defines the consistent concept of personhood – of being – from birth to death. It is not just the thoughts and feelings they have, though. It is the projections of all their friends and relations on that animated band of molecules housing that roving intelligence.

This “soul” has many identities attached to it, perhaps a continuous stream of them, but it only ever has one person attached to it. While Joe and Jane might see different sides of Jill, both of them can agree that all of those qualities belong to Jill. So, the “soul” becomes the gestalt of many qualities, many memories, many events and incidents and relationships, all of which orbit a single person.

Surely, when someone dies, then, the soul continues to exist immaterially (in the way that memories and concepts exist). It is not wispy trails of gray fog, nor a see-through apparition of their idealized self. It is nothing but the construct of them that continues to exist to everyone who thinks about them. Jill may die, but Joe and Jane can still talk about her. In fact, they might even talk to her, addressing the concept of her in their mind.  They might talk about what she would do if she were here, or who she would like or dislike. They might be wrong, surely, but the person never stops existing as a range of not only memories, but also possibilities.

Why bother with this term at all? Because there ought to be a term for it. We ought to understand that identity is a fleeting and subjective quality, that people ultimately change many times, but no matter how radically they change, they exist as a “super set” of all those things “that are themselves,” if you will. The “soul” is all of those things attached to the flesh and bone which house the phenomena of intelligence. And as surely as all the molecules of that flesh and bone are replaced time and time again, that “soul” never leaves the resulting organic matter.

There ought to be a term because abstraction is vital to our thinking and communicating.

Ultimately, those who embrace naturalism (which I do) must understand abstraction is still incredibly important to the human experience and our ability to preserve psychological well-being. Our great intellects have been built on a foundation of animal instincts and faulty logic, all of which is run by an organic machine that was developed but not designed. I find that abstraction is a great tool for addressing the resulting ghost in the machine.

The puzzling result for me is, ultimately, the “soul” would not be well-described by any words or notions. Rather, it can only be defined by all of the things which it encompasses, ultimately making it an indescribable mystery. I don’t really have a problem with that – it describes, somewhat, the enormous complexity of a human being. In that way, we can say “Brevity is the soul of wit,” but we’ll never quite have a word that defines the soul of Chuck, for instance.

My Vacation!

June 8th, 2010

So, a personal update – I just finished my vacation! I was off for 10 days and I went… nowhere! I didn’t even get to go camping, which is very sad. Normally, I go to the beach with four or five dozen people I know, but this year Annette couldn’t take any vacation, so I stayed at home.

Here’s what I did on my vacation this year:

  • Watched the first three seasons of Law & Order: Criminal Intent. I had seen most of them already. I love the Robert Goren character, and I’m sad Vincent D’onofrio isn’t on the show anymore. I mostly watched while working on minis, so it served as a nice distraction.
  • Built a ton of minis. I built something like 25 new Chaos Space Marines, including Terminators and one loyal Space Marine Chaplain. Some of my work has been posted to Save Vs Blog, but not all of it yet.
  • Tried to finish video games. At this, I failed. I tried to finish out Dragon Age, but as I do with Bioware games so often, I just made two new characters and played with them. I like making characters too much. I am still amazed I finished Mass Effect 2 on my first try. I didn’t make a dozen new characters or anything! So, I still have Assassin’s Creed 2 and Fallout 3 and Grand Theft Auto 4 to finish. And soon, I’ll have Transformers: War for Cybertron, so I am still way behind.
  • Failed to finish out The Insane in World of Warcraft. I knew I probably wouldn’t finish last week, but I got so into minis that I didn’t gather up the stuff I needed to finish Shen’dralar and Ravenholdt. The stuff I need for Darkmoon Faire still looms over me… so many plants, so many cards, so many decks.
  • Decked out my Mini-ManCave. My computer desk has been decked out with new shelves, drawers and sundry items, turning it from mild desk into Mighty Mini-ManCave! I’ve got easy access to the internet, minis, tools and all the stuff I need to work on almost all of my hobbies at once!

Overall, it was fun. I think I would’ve had a lot of fun at the beach, but I wouldn’t have a bunch of minis, so… all in all, it was still a good vacation.

The Original Entrapment

May 4th, 2010

The tale of Adam and Eve is interesting for a lot of reasons. If you’re the kind of person who thinks that mythology has an insight into psychology (and I am!) then the depth of the story easily doubles or triples.

The story also forms the foundation of a certain justification of human suffering. After all, Eve and Adam eat the apple, in that order, and then God is all, like, “Hey! Now you have to toil in the fields and suffer through childbirth and crap. And ye shall surely die.”

Of course, conceptually, it’s all ridiculous. An all-powerful being creates three beings – a man, a woman and a serpent – knowing each of them as intimately as he knows himself, knowing their natures and knowing their wants and desires. Then he sets up a paradise, but with a caveat. If he were to call this a “test” then that would be a ridiculous notion. He’s all-powerful, and he created the beings. He should know the outcome.

Now, to draw a fun analogy, let’s say I make a ball of wax. I know the nature of the ball, I know how it will behave because I understand physics, and I try to make the best ball of wax I can. Then I decide to create the perfect conditions to test the ball of wax – I make a ramp and try to roll the ball down the ramp. Now, what I want is for the ball to roll straight down to the end of the ramp. Let’s say the ball isn’t perfect – it’s a bit off, and it rolls off the side of the ramp.

As the ball’s creator, I am responsible for it rolling off the side of the ramp. Now, in anger, I might throw the ball of wax against the wall, but punishing the ball of wax is ultimately futile. What I ought to do is remold the wax to make it more spherical, make sure the ramp is straight and test it again once I’ve made it better. Apparently, making a better ball of wax is not in God’s plan.

But what’s worse, to me, the analogy is better stated as God making a ball of wax, putting it in a gutter and being angry when it rolls down the gutter. The story supposes the all-powerful being created curious beings, put them in a garden with a blabbermouth snake, and then got angry when nature took its course.

What’s more interesting to me is that we’d consider that sort of thing completely unethical in our society. A police officer cannot entice you to commit a crime. It’s called entrapment, and it’s cause for a dismissal of charges against the entrapped offender. In the garden, God is responsible not only for putting curious humans in abutment to a talking snake (with legs, at the time), he doesn’t get involved when the snake talks to them. As Ricky Gervais points out in one of his stand-up routines, he could have just told the snake to shut up, or told Adam and Eve that the snake was a liar. But he didn’t.

The story is obviously not sensible at all, which is why it’s mythology and not a true story of how humans came to exist. Moreover, it’s mythology that speaks to a certain psychological belief – that humans are to blame for their own suffering. It is just one more story in a long line of psychological delusions that allow us to continue to believe we live in a fair and just world. We cannot stand the idea that life just isn’t fair, so we invent tales that show us that we are to blame for its unfairness, not to mention that we embrace political ideals that insinuate that the poor are lazy and the disabled are faking it. They must be, because the universe is totally fair to everyone.

The unfairness of any existent god to the people he is supposed to have created is an enormous flaw in any theist claim. But what’s worse, any belief in a Hell or any form of eternal punishment is a belief that the all-knowing creator of the universe created a perfect ball of wax and was pissed off when it rolled away from him.